Confessions

I have been feeling more like myself lately, its great! BUT, there are days that the hormones are all out of whack and the lack of sleep makes things even worse. I feel bad for my kids, they almost have their mom back, so I know soon enough I will be doing fun things with them again.

I wish I fit into more of my old clothes. Even maternity clothes don't look so great with the flabbiness that is going on in my mid section. I know its still early and things will go back into some what of the original place... but hurry up body!

I need sleep!

I love nursing my little O. He is getting chunky and cuter every day. It makes me feel good to see him gaining weight. It makes my gallons of milk more bearable. BUT, if he has a belly ache its because of some weird thing I ate and it will happen again if I don't figure it out. I haven't had a Dt. Coke since we got home from the hospital!

I have always wanted to be blond. I know that sounds dumb, but maybe that is the hormones talking :). I will be keeping my dark hair... I still like it just fine.

I feel inadequate as a mom sometimes and I question my every move with my kids. Such an overwhelming responsibility. I know I am not the best and I have a lot to work on. I think this is what gets me down most days.

I dread night time. I used to love it! This was the time that Dave and I could hang out and be by ourselves and chit chat with no interruptions. Now, I pray and pray that Otis will have a great night sleep, like he does during the day. He is sleeping longer stretches at night (six hours at a time), but often he just wants his binky or has a burp. He might not need to eat but he is still getting me up.

I miss my daily dose of Dt. Coke. I know I was not addicted to it, since I have not felt any "withdrawal" symptoms. But, it is such a great treat! I miss it!!!

I have been so impressed and in awe of the love people have for me and my family. We have been the recipients of so much lately, its amazing.

I don't know how single parents do it. Dave has been my life saver lately. He makes me take a nap and lets me sleep in. I love having him home all day and I hate it when he is gone.

Ok... that's enough. I am done for now :) Life is good... I really shouldn't complain.