"How are you feeling?"

Another unflattering picture.... FAT! But a funny one this time :D

I get this question a lot lately. I love that people ask and that they want to know. The above picture describes how I am feeling lately... fat! I love being pregnant, I have said that several times. This may or may not be the last time. This pregnancy has gone very quickly, until recently. It has seemed to really slow down. I feel fat. I feel like although I certainly look pregnant, I also look fat. And I am. I need to be honest with myself. But I think that the short answer for the "how are you feeling?" question is FAT.

Over all I really do feel really good. There are days that I feel like the baby is standing straight up and his feet are up to my neck or jammed in my lungs. I am still able to sleep fairly well and I move around just fine. I have had some shortness of breath and that is normal (according to my doctor).

Emotionally its been rough. The ups and downs are hard. The worry-wart in me is in full swing with the baby's well being. If I don't feel him move in an hour, I freak-out and I take it out on others (specifically my kids). My ever-growing-belly is getting difficult to cover. I often change my shirt 4+ times before I find something that will work for that day. That doesn't help the my emotional self. I seem to cry over things I would usually not care about... but I guess that comes with the territory.

I am getting anxious to see baby Leif and I wonder what he will look like. I have a hard time waiting for things but I have been trying to be patient with this baby and when it will come. I really don't want to be induced... I want him to come when he is ready. I just hope I can keep that attitude up.

But I really do feel pretty good. I am enjoying this as much as I can. If this is the last baby for us I want to love and embrace every second of this great opportunity and miracle. I know I will miss it in the future... but I have to be realistic.