I love, LOVE change. I have had to deal with change all my life. My parents moved around a lot and we had to be quick to adapt to our new environment. I love that about my life. I think it gave me opportunities that have really blessed my life. I have always been able to make new friends easily and I think it also helped to be willing to try new things.
That being said... I find it really hard to change things about myself. I have always been able to 'run away' from my problems. I never stayed in one place long enough to even make trouble, not that I am one to cause trouble. This year for my new year's resolution I am going to strive to be more like I was. That might sounds a little strange, but I was a different person years ago. I miss that person inside me. I still see glimpses of that cute little girl, but its just glimpses. I want to be her again.
As Dave and I discussed our resolutions (he has a bunch) I said I would only work on that one thing. I think it encompasses a lot. I certainly have to work on my physical state of being, but that will be after the baby comes. For now I will walk and try to keep my legs some what fit. It certainly includes my spiritual state, to which I feel I lack a lot of. I think my new calling will help me with that, so I certainly feel its an inspired calling. It also includes my emotional sense and also my relationships. I want to be more sensitive to others needs, their feelings and think before I speak or act. This is not going to be easy. It has already proven difficult, its only been three days and I have caught myself being 'short' with others (particularly the ones I love) often. I want to be an over all nicer, better, more loving, caring, kind, thoughtful, patient person. It should be too hard, right? I think if I just work on one thing I will be able to accomplish it.
I really love that picture of my siblings and I. Marcos always so loving, Esteban with that mischievous smile on his face, Tomi too little to show her spunky self :) and me... my old self. I am really looking forward to what this year will be bringing me. I hate waiting, but I guess I will be patient and simply enjoy the ride.
3 comments:
I think it is great to have goals. There are always things we can work on in ourselves. I do think you are wonderful, but I have been offended plenty of times by your remarks (JUST KIDDING!!!); I always appreciate your honesty. Anyway, good luck on your goals this year.
I can see Milli in that picture of you. Good luck with your New Year's Resolution. I always find it hard to keep them after about 4 months into the year. Mine, I'm going to try to be better about everything.
I think it's ALWAYS best to stick to one goal for the year. A list stresses me out.
The thing that I've really struggled with the past ten years or so has is trying to be like my old self. Sometimes it can be really frustrating and depressing thinking back to the "good ol' days". but I have tried hard to let go and realize that I have to find a new normal. After each child, I realize that I can't try to be the mom/wife I used to be because things are different now... not worse, necessarily but different. I am not saying your goal isn't a great one, but the experiences we go through (both good and bad) DO change us. Don't be too hard on yourself! I am sure that little girl would be very proud of the woman you've become!
Happy New Year!
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