Sunday, June 7, 2009

Why is it...?

Why is it that when we are in a bad mood we take it out on the ones we love the most?

Why is it that when we are feeling fat we eat all the things that have gotten us to that point?

Why is it that when we want to have a great day at church the kids seem to behave their very worst?

Why is it that dinner has to be ready at a certain time and that I always have to be the one to make dinner? (this is not a requirement from my husband, rather my own)

Why is it that when we are living our dream we are unhappy?

Why is it so hard to always do what is asked of us, when what is asked is so simple?

Why is it that our loved ones choices affect our lives so much?

Why is it that we want to have curly hair when God has given us straight hair?

Why is it that we want more kids when the responsibility of just one is HUGE?

Why is it that life is so hard at times?

Why is it that we feel so alone sometimes when we are surrounded by people who love us?

Why is it so hard to be a mom?

Why is it so hard to say "I'm sorry"?

Why is it so hard to have a clean and organized house?

Why is it so hard to break bad habits and create new habits?

Why is it so hard to say no to those Limon Chips when they are not good for you?

Why is it that our muscles still hurt after a week of no exercise?

Why is it that we don't have time to do all the things we want to do, even when those things will bring happiness to those we love?

Why is it that we choose to waste our time watching dumb shows on TV when there is so many other things that we could do, that would help us feel so much better about everything?

Why is it so hard to get our priorities straight?

Why is it that we want to run away or escape, when all we have ever wanted is right under our nose?

Why is it that my kids are so forgiving and God has been so immensely giving to let me borrow them for this short period in my existence? (I often feel unworthy of their sweet spirits, I know I am not the best mom they could have... but I love them more than I could ever say)

I have been feeling like this for a while. I have no idea why. I just want to be happy and content with what is now! I feel like Negative Nellie and I hate feeling that way. I guess I should just tell myself, "this too shall pass".

12 comments:

Cara said...

don't give up! Things will look better soon!

RaShawn said...

I hope you feel better soon! Do we need a girls night out?

Megan said...

I'm glad I'm not the only one asking myself those same things EVERY DAY! Combine those feelings with way too many pregnancy hormones & you've got yourself one crazy lady in tears!
I think RaShawn has a great idea for you... a girl's night out!

Maria said...

I don't know why. I totally understand how you feel though. I have asked myself those same questions quite a bit lately. Maybe there's something in the air or the water - Cherry Hill water maybe?. :) Hang in there!

Wendy said...

I just wanted to tell you that I always thinking of you Girl! I love this little thing stephanie from Nie Dialogues wrote one time: only when is dark enough you can see the stars. warm kisses and hugs from Florida.

Maricela said...

I think we really do need a girls night out. I also think we all feel like this at times. If there is anything I can do to help, let me know. I don't want to run yet, but I will watch the kids if you want to go!

Tiffany said...

Sometimes just airing our grievances helps a little. Recognizing and putting into words the things that feel wrong can help right them. Hopefully your post was a little theraputic (maybe some cherry hill time will help as well--if the sun ever comes out again.)

lys said...

Extremely good questions that I've been asking myself a lot lately. I keep thinking that I want to blog about them, but then I have second thoughts about being so negative. Maybe I'll just cut and paste your entry. ;)

Yorgasons said...

I know how you feel! Really I do. reading all those questions was like reading my own thoughts! I wish I had the answers to all of them...maybe its just that it is our constatn struggle against the natural man! ARG!!

Amy said...

Lau, you should be a poet. Did you steal that from somewhere? Tell me the truth. Seriously though, sorry you're down. Give me a call and we'll sob together.

Linetta said...

You're NOT the only one feeling this way...we all do at least once in a while...I believe it has something to do with the fact that we're women and we can't turn off our brains all the way. Just remember you're a daughter of God and he loves you, so do we other daughters of God. You're incredible for what you can do and who you are!

Crissy said...

Thank you for sharing and for being so honest: I FEEL THE SAME WAY!!! Hang in there, we're there with you!