Random Crafting Thoughts

I was down in my new sewing/crafting area (that I love, by the way) getting my craft on today and my alone-time got me thinking. Alone time is great, I love being alone with my thoughts, but my thoughts got me thinking about who and how I am as a person, a wife, a mother, a sister, a daughter, a neighbor and more specifically a friend. I want to be good at all these things, sometimes it feels impossible, but I need to strive to be better. I was going through a website trying to find my crafting quote to put on the wall above my sewing machine and I came across some that really made me think and reevaluate who I really want to be, at least as a friend.

A friend is someone who does things that count, but never stops to count them.
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A friend is someone you can do nothing with - and really enjoy it.
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A friend is someone you can trade secrets with and never worry.
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A good friend sticks to you like honey.
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A new friend is valuable, and old friend is priceless.
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A reassuring presence, a light when times are dark,
a hand reaching out, is what friendship is about.
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These are just a few quotes that have got me thinking. I know I can do better, but at times it doesn't seem to matter. Others don't care what I am going through. They don't care what is making me happy that second or making me sad or frustrated. After all, we all have our own 'issues'. BUT, when friends call and ask me how I am doing and really mean it, it makes me feel like they really care. I feel like I can tell them my 'issues' and they are listening... Do I do that to my friends? Do I make them feel that I care and that I am interested in their 'issues', not to gossip but to really be a listening ear? I sure hope I make others feel like a good friend makes me feel.

I am blessed with friends who listen to me when I am babbling about my poor painting job, or my burnt food, or spend hours (literally) on the phone talking as I clean my dirty bathroom or just to talk about my coupon shopping trip or can listen to me describe a new outfit in detail. I feel like I always try to share a good idea or a good deal or something that has helped me or even share of my time and talents with others. Why do I feel unappreciated? I feel like something is missing in my life right now... why this feeling? Why does Satan creep negative thoughts into our head? Can't we have positive thoughts all the time? Can't we talk like adults and not have ill high school type feelings with our friends? Why can't I just be happy all the time? Does it all stem with how I feel inside? Why am I really here?

These are not actual questions I am asking for others to answer, rather my own thoughts. I have always been a happy girl, but lately I know I have been short with others, little things that others do bug me more than ever, I have frowny eye brows (maybe I need some Botox :), my attitude is not pleasing to be around. My kids don't deserve a cranky-get-mad-super-fast-who is cracking the whip all the time-kind-of-a-mom, they DESERVE better. I just want to be happy and easy going like I used to be.... I think I just need to go focus on myself a bit more and forget about what others do or don't do and focus on what I am doing for others.

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