Apparently some of you still read my blog, hahaaa! Thank you for your kind emails and words. I have GREAT friends!
I just wanted to update this and not leave a "negative" post up for too long :)
Dave and I went for a quick date that same night. One of the great benefits of having my mom living with us is that once she is home from work and kiddos are in bed, Dave and I can go on a date and not worry about being back in a hurry or if the kids are ok, plus its great not to have to a sitter.
I wrote down all of the things that have been bothering me. I wanted to have a clear head and I wanted to say everything I needed to and wanted to say. Once Abuela got home we took off to Orange Leaf, grabbed the yummiest treat ever and drove up to Bountiful Blvd. were we could chit chat, uninterrupted and with each others full attention.
Dave is awesome! He heard what I had to say and gave me praise where praise was needed and a good "you-know-what-you-have-to-do" where needed. "Purging" my feelings is great for me. I can get things in the open and not bottle them up. Dave wants to do nothing more than please me and make me happy. There are things that I wanted him to change and he immediately started "working" on them. There is much I need to change to make us both happy and although I have tried to make the changes necessary, my mental block is still there.
The good news is that I have felt so much better since "purging." I am one of those people who can't hold things in. I have to let them out and letting them out is the best thing I could have done. I have been listening to some uplifting music and REALLY trying to be kinder to kids and more loving to Dave.
Things will still go up and down, but it will all be good in the long run. I just have to keep trying and see the good that is in me.
Thanks for your love and kind words!
xoxo
