Here is the DOWN....I didn't want to put anything "negative" on my blog, but as this is part of our lives I thought I would share some insight in to it. My relationship with my dad has never been a great one. I do however, have fond memories of him as a young girl/woman, but my dreams have been shattered as of late. This week was particularly difficult due to some issues that we have been dealing with. It was close to 6 o'clock on Thursdays night and I had a VERY important phone call to make. My heart had been racing all day, since I was nervous and perhaps a bit concerned. I had to speak to my dad, and perhaps for the last time. After the phone call I was beside myself and had to take a few minutes to relax, since I was having a hard time breathing. I am not sure what has happened but he is not the person I knew. It truly breaks my heart to have to go through this and I TRULY pray that some day things can be back to "normal". I completely disagree with my dad's choices, but for some reason I can't just forget about him. He has hurt me immensely, but there is no trial I can not over come. Some good must come out of all of this.... I just wish I knew what it was so all of this could be done.
This is how I feel about this...
Here is the UP...I am grateful for great friends. My life wouldn't be the same with out them. I have been so blessed with the friends that surround me. From a phone call, a note, even a quick act of service, or simply a hug; my life is easier because of them. I only hope I can be there for my friends when they need me. How would it be to not have friends we could rely on? Or friends and family who sincerely love you? Or care about you? Or encourage you to do better? All I know it that friends are a HUGE blessing in my life. Thank you to each of you that make my life easier, whether you are near or far. OOO's and XXX's.
This is how I feel about my friends...
3 comments:
Sorry about your dad. I hope things will work out, one day as well. It's so sad. I'm glad you've got good friends to help you with life's woes!!
Hey poopy squatzzz...Thanks for your support through these tough times...I love you and I'm there for you too!! Thanks for being so strong!!
Don't you wish you could make peoples choices for them sometimes? I believe that some spirits are wiser and older than others, I am sensing that your dad is older than you in mortality but your spirit is more mature than his. I am thinking you will always have to take the high road with this relationship, but in the end it is you who will be blessed with a guilt free conscious. Wow do I sound preachy or what? I feel like I need to say a swear word now to balance my universe. Keep up the great attitude and remember that life is long. The prodigal son returned, it isn't impossible for anyone. O.K. I really need to stop I am starting to freak myself out.
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