This morning I woke up in a very grumpy mood. I came up stairs and the kids had a great big mess in the play area and I had just had it with all the mess! I ask them twenty times a day to keep the toys in the toy area and I find them every BUT there! I know they are kids and they should play, but there comes a time that I need them to PLEASE do their part. Maybe I am asking too much from them in that department. After I asked them to please clean up, Leah was not a happy camper and she said "You are the rudest mom ever. You are just really tired and need to go back to sleep". I was so grumpy I didn't even crack smile at what she said, and it sounded just like me! (scary). Her comment put me over the edge and everything was simply irritating to me. I have cooked EVERY meal for the last week and I was not in the mood to cook breakfast, but I had too. Then I finally took a shower and then had to do my hair, because all my new baby hair is coming back (I lost a lot of hair after Milli was born) and I can't just put it in an ugly pony tail. I had planned to doing some errands with only Mylo while Dave watched Milli, while she was taking her nap. As soon as I finished getting ready Milli woke up. UGH! I need her to be more consistent and more predictable. I told Dave I was very frustrated and overwhelmed with how crappy I am at my "job". I can't get things done that I need done. I was never like this before. I have always been very organized and my house was always clean. I am a scheduled person and I have not been able to be like that for a LOOOOONG time. I had to go to Costco anyway, so I took the two little monkeys with me and saw a friend at the return desk. As we chatted for a bit I almost cried, for no reason at all. Whatever, then we went to do our shopping. As we walked in Mylo saw a picture of Jesus in a display. He loudly said "look mom there's Jesus!" Yeah Mylo!!! You just made my day. Jesus knows how I feel and I also know how much he loves me as does my Father in Heaven. Crazy, but I felt the spirit as I walked through Costco with that picture in my mind. That didn't cure my "frustration"... but it did bring me some peace of mind and a certain calmness. I came home with a renewed desire to be a bit more patient. God has entrusted me with these precious kids and I have to do my part to help them return to him. They do bring me much happiness and lots of laughs every day. Even when they sound just like me.
Why the cute picture of Mylo along with this post? The other day I had him wear this shirt and he did not want to wear it. Well, too bad buddy this is what you are wearing. He was bawling and he said "this shirt makes me be allergic!" hahahahaa... very funny Mylo. I had no idea he was "alergic" to this t-shirt. Then today I made him wear it again (most of the other clothes is in the massive laundry pile, which is another reason for my frustrations), he said "this shirt makes me nerveous, I want another shirt". I told him when he could count from 1-100 he could pick his clothes out on his own, so he said "1,2,100. Now I can change my shirt". He always says the funniest things. My kids melt my heart and make me smile all the time. I need to look at all these things when life seems to be frustrating and hard.
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You just described my week.
Monday the house was awesome and I just had the bathroom to do and the kids room.
Tuesday I did the kids room but somehow the rest of the house because a bomb site and it hasn't recovered.
I keep apologizing to Dru for not doing my job properly and of course he thinks I'm a mad hatter.
Ahhh I love him and I love you.
Hang in there Laura there are lots of us who think you're awesome, just the way you are.
I use to have a clean house too, but you saw mine last night. Maybe it's the number of kids you have. I remember 3 being really hard for me. It took me a lot time to get back on top of things. Hang in there. I think you are an awesome mom!
Ditto to the above. Way to be honest about a routine, overwhelming and underappreciated day! We hear ya! "There are lots of us who think you're awesome just the way you are." I admire you for working so hard. You always seemed pulled together and you are raising great kids who recognize Christ! The last is more important than a clean house...
In the meantime: when the toys get in the wrong room or Milli wakes up too early...just kick the toy even further from the toy room while grabbing a Diet Coke from the fridge!! The kids will learn that they have to walk twice as far when it's clean-up time ;)
Hey I have something to cheer you up...You won my necklace giveaway. Yeah! You need to email me your address and what you want on the necklace and I'll have it shipped. Congrats!
Ah Laura, thanks for sharing! You made me laugh cause I think us mom's all have those days and we just can't take anymore... I am always telling Chloe "I am your mom I can do whatever I want!" whenever she tells me no to something. It's important to remember what is important. We love you guys!
I was telling Erick the other day how I feel that seems that now that the kids are bigger it seems that I have much more work than when there where babies the house is just so messy with socks, shoes and toys all the time all over and I was really feeling very frustrated but then that frustation melts away when even though sometimes I feel like the meanest Mom ever, Ethan doesn't want to go to school because he misses me too much and then Evelyn Yestarday as I drive her to school says to me "Mommy you are the best Mommy and I want to be a Mommy just like you when I grow up" just melted my heart and makes me want to work harder at just been more patient and not sweat the little things just because it was the first time she said that and I want her to still feel that way when she grows up. Sorry didn't mean to make this long. I love you and you really are amazing and that really shows in your sweet kids.
I love Sarah's advise to kick to toy further away.
The shirt doesn't look bad to me! :) How funny!
I think we all have these days. Hopefully they are few and far in between. Thank goodness for the gentle reminders from above that help keep us on track right?
love that story about mylo! i didn't know he was a fussy dresser. can't wait to see you in a few weeks!
Hang in there Lau, you are one of the best moms I know! I've discovered that mothers & homemakers don't get praise for all that they do right in a day, it is a full-time job without a lot of positive feedback. But take it from me, you are doing GREAT!!! Even on its messiest day the Spirit is still present in your home, and what higher goal can you have than that? Love you!!
I think we ALL get days like these...I've had 2 weeks of them lying in bed or in the recliner looking at all the things I didn't get done before my surgery or the things I can't do now after my surgery. Of course, my children have both gone "deaf" and are also tired of all the "can you please..." requests. I can't wait until I can get back into the swing of things! Also...Sydni is going to miss you TONS in YW! You have been a great example to her and her parents appreciate it!
Mylo is such a character, I love it!! I'm glad you still got to go to Costco and see the picture of Jesus. I saw those last week, they really are beautiful. And thanks for doing my Costco shopping for me today--it saved me!!
Laura, I like your description of your day. I am sorry for all the frustration. I understand when you say you wanted to cry for no reason at all...sometimes I feel like that too!
Aren't kids great? They always remind me of how much simpler I should live my life.
Cute. It is o.k. to have spotaneous tears. It happens to me way more often than it should. I think you are pretty patient, we just sometimes have crappy frustrated days.
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