Gingerbread House

At the beginning of the month the kids and I made this Gingerbread House. It has become some what of a tradition and its a lot of fun. The kids and Dave want to destroy the house as soon as its done but I make them wait at least one week before starting to pick all the candy off of it. I hate seeing it destroyed since it takes quite some time to finish it... but it looks pretty and its good to get the kids to get their chores done. I hate that it never turns out as nice as the one pictured on the box.

Feliz Navidad!!!

My Christmas gifts are with me always, not just in December. I have....

My darling husband - Who is supportive of what I want to do, encouraging, loyal, hard working and all he wants for me is to be happy. He loves our children and spends time with them and is an example to them. He has a strong testimony of the true gospel of Jesus Christ and He guides his every decision.

My children - I am found daily in awe of these blessings that have come to our home. They make me so happy and just looking at them brings me joy. I cant get enough of them!

The blessing of having another child - What a beautiful miracle to have the ability to have a growing baby. We feel so blessed with a yet another child blessing our lives.

My extended family - Our Grandmother has always brought us close together and we are all very good friends. Although distances have taken us to different places we are still able to connect with each other as if we were together just the day before.

My in-laws - I love them all. They bring happiness to me and I feel like they (each of them) are part of my real family. I always have a great time with them and I am thankful for the laughs we can share.

The gospel - With out it I would be lost.

Most of all: FOR CHRIST - With out Him I would be lost forever.

May your Christmas blessings surround YOU through out the year!

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I use this " !!!!!!!!!!!!! " way too much! I need to stop!!!!!

A Happy Day at Our House!!!

We are expecting our 4th monkey/angel/baby !!!!!!! We are so excited!!!!! Can you tell????!!!!!! This has been the longest I have waited to tell, ever! I love to share good news with people and I think this is just the best news to share :) I guess my Christmas present came early :) I am 12 weeks and we got to see the little "gummy bear" (that is what my midwife called it) today. The baby was moving around all over the place. The heartbeat looked really nice and strong and nothing could have made me happier today. Tears of joy flowed down my face as I saw that little baby wriggling around in there. I have been feeling much to well to even feel pregnant, I guess I shouldn't complain, but I would like to "feel" pregnant to feel a bit more reassurance that all is good... but I feel that it is.

We told all our family today and that was a lot of fun as well. Milli has known since the beginning and she is really good at keeping secrets :) She hasn't told anybody. When I showed Mylo the ultrasound picture he said, "is that Milli?" We said that is was a new baby, he was slow to catch on that it would be our baby, but once he realized it, he smiled and said I hope its a boy (me too). Leah was last to find out. She looked at the picture and said, "is that me?" Nope, not you! She also asked "when did this happen? You just got pregnant and that was it?" Oh boy... here we go....

Candy Train, Dubious and the letter Z

Mylo has said some funny things later and I must share.



CANDY TRAIN

While getting ready for school:

Me: Whats your favorite part about school?

Mylo: I don't like school. I only like recess

Me: Why don't you like school?

Mylo: Because I don't like to color. And I don't like to do my name 'cause teacher does it little and she is really fast at it and I can't!

When I picked him up He has a huge smile on his face and I asked..

Me: See school is fun, you get to do fun crafts.

Mylo: Well I only like school when we get to make Candy Trains!

Ok... well I guess that is understandable.


DUBIOUS

That same same I had to go my dreaded grocery shopping. I had Mylo and Milli. We were by the apples when Mylo says...

Mylo: Mom, Milli is very dubious!

Me: Oh yeah?!?! (as I quickly speed dial Dave) "Hey Dave, can you look up a word for me?"

Dave: Ya. What is it?

Me: Dubious?

Dave: Why?

Me: Because Mylo just said Milli is very dubious and I have no idea what that means.

We both chuckled a bit. Not sure where he got that word. Dave and I didn't know what it meant! It means doubtful. Not sure why he said that but it was certainly funny.


THE LETTER "Z"

And just a few minutes ago I asked him (as we played on the floor, he would 'tackle' me and I would tickle him)...

Me: what is your favorite letter?

Mylo: (thinking carefully....) I think I like the letter Z because that is the last letter and that means there is no more school after that letter.

Me:.... (Laughing on the floor, literally) Hang on buddy, I gotta go write this down!


He is seriously such a crack up every day!!!! What a witty kid.... He for sure got that from his mom ;)


LOOOOOVE being a mother to this monkey. LOOOOOVE IT!!!!!

OUCH!!! I think I broke my toe...

I know I don't have the prettiest of feet... BUT, they will look even worse now! I was walking from Mylo's room to Milli's room to grab a new shirt for her and I must have been very mad at something that I kicked the door jam SO hard. It killed! I almost cried. I didn't look at my toe for a while but I was clearly in pain and it was (and still is) really hard to walk. I feel silly limping around, but it hurts! Its now purple and hurts worse than before. I don't think I need to go to the Dr.'s since they won't do anything, but it really hurts!



side note: Mylo just saw me typing this and saw the picture and said, "is that your toooooe?" with a big yucky face :) HAHAHAAA. He is right that is yucky!

Losing... Will it ever come back!?!?

My heart hurts today (no need to call...) But yesterday my dad came by. I still love to see him and I still love him a lot. But he has hurt me so badly. His choices have been so difficult to take in. Feeling as though he has yet to really change is hard to see. I have always put him on a peddle stool (not sure if that is how you say that) and he has more than disappointed me. During the Holidays or Birthdays or Family get-togethers I think of how his choices have made him so sad. I have never been able to stand up to him. And yesterday before he left and after some small talk, he put his hand on my shoulder and looked me in the eyes and said "God has forgiven me, and I need you guys to forgive me. I need a reason to live". What I wanted to tell him, but I couldn't, was that he has yet to ask for our forgiveness. He chose this and we are the ones that have to live with the consequences too. Why is it so hard?!?! I was pregnant with Milli when all of this happened, I was in a fragile state yet he chose what he wanted. It still so hard to swallow. I have felt for a long time that he is gone. He certainly is not the father I grew up with, the father that taught me about the gospel, the man I admired and looked up to. I am not sure I will ever be able to fill that void in my heart. It really hurts.

It's hard to see those you love make choices that will affect you and those you love so much. yet they are being selfish. When people change but want you to be the same person. I wonder if I will be judged for not helping? Even when I have helped in the past. There is nothing in this world that I love more than my family, nothing.

I miss those I have lost, whether they have passed away or made choices that have taken them away from my life. I feel like I try to do my best to help those around me, but it simply doesn't seem like enough. We have to watch out for ourselves as well, why is our help not enough? Why do we hurt so much when we feel like we have done our part? Yet, we feel like we have nothing more to give.